Pain from the heart

being silly and out of my mind i bet lately but i felt so in love... i have to stop this like really2

"I never thought that it would be me
Actin' like such a fool
and here I am saying boy I'm sorry
for something i didn't do, this is my point of view
i never meant to fall for him
lately its been driving me crazy.."

day before it's something like

"wanna show you I'm not like the rest
so put me to the test
I want this more than anything
than anything..."

and now i have been thinking....
"Why didn't I listen to my heart
(hey that's what i'm doing)
When he had me guessin' from the start
More and more I wonder
Why do I still want him
(when it's all impossible)
After all the love I gave to him
All this pain and all because of him
What am I supposed to do
When it's all a lie
Where am I supposed to go
When it's dark outside
What am I supposed to do
When it's all a lie..."

i'm just gonna assume its just a day dream
only this time it's more like real
coz i can feel it still
the feeling when i think about it
and maybe it's nothing
but this pain of knowing it
might be just something normal to him
and when its really huge to me...

p/s: you shouldn't have come when i was really in love with you
coz' you're driving me crazy

I don't know what's the truth and what's a lie...

i was in love with you and you came straight at me...
leaving me like this isn't helping..


i got to go...need to clear my head..

loving you G

Happy 22nd BIRTHDAY TO NAJIB

Just wanna wish Najib aka Mr. cool a belated birthday on the 28th kemarin wish you all the best and good luck with the training next year in UK may all your wishes came true and HAPPY ALWAYS

Happy Birthday MIL!!!

Just wanna say Happy belated Birthday to my beloved BEST FRIEND NurAzmil LOls even though the suprize thing didn't work i hope you love the Chocolate Cake may all ur wishes came true and all the best with everything you do... His birthday was on the 24th december... and he 21 XD all the best oryt *hugs* loving you always...

♥ ♥ George Nozuka ♥ ♥

in love with Justin Nozuka's eldest Brother George Nozuka he's my Baby ahahha LOLs

♥ Justin Nozuka ♥

Through the water And through the flames My baby left me without a trace She took my money And left the ring And she didn't leave one clue of where she was going to Oh my baby up and left me alone She signed goodbye on the letter that she wrote Oh my baby up and left me now Mr. Therapy man I need to ask you how can I live on How could she do it Go break my heart when She used to be the one crying when we were apart I gave her all of me, Gave her my soul and that was exactly what she stole from me

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMAL!

smiles and laughter, joy and cheer happiness that stays throughout the year... wishing your birthday brings all these and more! May the sun rise today... and fill your day with warmth... May the flowers bloom today... and spread their sweet fragrance around… May every moment of your special day brings you many reasons to smile making all your wishes came true… From Morning, Noon to Night... Just wanna say HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! Beloved aunty! ;)don't cry beb heheh *hugs*

All blended into one

hey there...its been awhile XD hohoho anyway let's start the story... for the past week been very busy with school work..assignment...phase test...end test and so on... i neglected you ahahah i mean the blog huhu so here i am complaining like always that's what girls do best right? *random* so hm..the test was ok i guess the 1st paper was economics? it was erm ok can answer all the questions.. and the teacheractully say that our class passed except one... so just hoping it isn't me amin huhuhu the 2nd paper was people and organization.. the paper was i don't know ok but i didn't answer all coz it was really... i forgot my brain ter-CRAPM! ahahh lols but honestly totally forget that question... the 3rd paper was statistics...it was FREAKING hard and i almost cry in there sal i didn't answer 1 question which carries 20 marks i guess...let's just hope i'll score on the other questions amin2 huhu than now college is almost over... but hey wait a minute... i still have assignment to be done and also presentation on Monday and the assignment is due on 30th so much for holiday huh? but year what ever...i need to do some research on brunei's economics statistics? huhuhu i really don't wanna think about it now...but again i have to do it.. like sooon? SHIT i just realize today is 25th and i got only 5 more days to go? SHIT SHIT =/ not funny at all!!! anyway today is my beloved best-friend's birthday HJH NOORHAYATI aka yatie may all your wishes came true and happy happy always and i love you sis huhu PRETTY RIGHT??? that's my best friend XD

in love with........

yea yea...you got me right... I'm so in love with this guy.. which guy? here he is aaahahha LOLS he's cute ryt? :P:P he's JUSTIN NOZUKA

I got issues...

Sometimes... I feel like I'm going out of My mind, Boy the way you do me is a

Damn crime

But then you smile at me And its alright, With you there ain't no in between... Every time that i walk out the door I tell myselfi can't take it no more There's a part of me won't let you go I keep sayin'

YES

when my minds sayin..

NO

Chorus: Me and my heart we got issues Don't know if i should hate you or miss you Damn i wish that i could resist you

CAN'T

decide if i should slap you or kiss you, Me and my heart we got issues,issues,issues We got issues issues issues. Its awful, boy you leave me hangin' for so long You empty out my love until its all gone You change the words but still its the same song Im tired of the melody Change my number and throw out your clothes But my feelings for you, they still show I keep building the walls round my heart But then i see you it all falls apart... Chorus: Me and my heart we got issues Don't know if i should hate you or miss you Damn i wish that i could resist you

CAN'T

decide if i should slap you or kiss you, Me and my heart we got issues,issues,issues We got issues issues issues. Wanna fight it, can't hide it Truth is i think i like it But in future, illusion Still i don't know which way to go..... Chorus: Me and my heart we got issues Don't know if i should hate you or miss you Damn i wish that i could resist you

CAN'T

decide if i should slap you or kiss you, Me and my heart we got issues,issues,issues We got issues issues issues. Me and my heart we got issues, issues We got issues, issues, issues We got issues, issues, issues We got issues, issues, issues, Me and my heart we got issues Don't know if i should hate you or miss you Me and my heart we got issues.....

*kusut*

kusut...sleepy and tired.... seeing all the papers upside down makes me really really stressed out... i like it to be organized.. not that i am an organize freak but i want my things to be neat and easy for me to reach out.. but seeing the book i have copied *sigh* i have to redo all the arrangements *kusut* anyways thanks to my daddy and sorry i really didn't mean to rise my voice you know i would never do that...i love you daddy *big hug*

xP

from

what a relief =D

random..

heyyoustopavoiding

clueless

Hopes things get back to normal clueless

I just don't know what to do...

i just realize something...

did i make a mistake??

is everything going to be alright? will everything get back to normal?

is he ignoring me? is it what i did? if things gets back to normal will the environment be awkward? i kinda miss him now.. *sigh*

Sorry...

I know I have been so selfish not thinking of others my families...my friends...my close crazy friends at Mtssr...My best friends... I know I don't have time for all of you guys... busy with my own little world *sigh* i just hope all of you guys understand you guys may think i already forgotten about us... but hey..I still care...i still love you guys.... hope you guys can forgive me... *hugs*

Starlight Tears

Starlight Tears (Kim Yoo Kyung) the white starlight envelops the tears the tears fall in the warm wind do you feel it? this trembling, quiet whisper that is going your way i draw you on this white paper the warm smile holds me is this love? even when i close my eyes, i see only you i will be waiting for you i will wait for you i don't want to see the tears of pain anymore you let me know this love that's like a lie, i'll never let it go because that love is you i'm walking in my memories with you the tears fill even the deepest area of my heart what should i do? even in my dreams, i miss you i will be waiting for you i will wait for you i don't want to see the tears of pain anymore you let me know this love that's like a lie, i'll never let it go because that love is you please look at me, like the faraway stars can't you be the one that's in my heart i will be waiting for you i will wait for you i don't want to see the tears of pain anymore you let me know this love that's like a lie, i'll never let it go because that love is you

=')

I like it in the rain no one can see I'm crying, All the pain is hidden while I'm slowly dying, The streaks on my face I can blame on the rain, Hiding the lies and masking the pain, The fear in my eyes is the only trace, As the rain clears away every tear from my face, The water slowly drips down from my hair, In the rain no one need know that I'm even there, Soaked to the skin every single part of me, I love being in the rain as I'm finally free...

bored..

took a few pix with the girls masa ke college td.. i when there skajap saja since i didn't drive....

around 5 balik...

p/s: gambar eyan nada sal eyan bz buat kraja..and jauh huhuh sory yaaan still missing you... p/s: oh yeaaaa...masa kan bgmbr tuuuu panya salah takan instead of photo tertakan video ahhah LOLS video di bwah ahahah LOLS

i don't know what to do

Sometimes..things didn't always go as plan..like what we always dangar..kita yang merancang Allah yang menentukan =) there's this one think that i honestly can't bare the pain or just ignoring the fact that i was totally hurt..i honestly don't know what i did to this person but she always make me feel down in class..sometimes i just wanna burst her bubble by asking what's her problem..i can positively be sure that i didn't do anything BAD towards her..i did my study..i do my assignment yet i notice her ignoring me..at first i didn't notice until one day she asked questions ane i try to participate in class by answering the question at first she ignore my answer..i thought maybe she didn't dangar my answer..than the second time *SIGH* i answer and she kinda laugh at me?? As if i was a stupid person? How can i do this? F this continue to go on..not just that she kinda ask for my classmate's opinion on my answer.. *hurt* honestly i can't bare this pain..sakit hati ada..sedih pun ada..the next day i try to just diam2 in class i try not to think about what happen the day before..i was truly hurt..then days go by there are times i answer ane she didn't even care to listen so i just act as if i didn't care..then there this one day we had our test and i don't know sama ada kana sngaja kan kah apa..she distribute all the paper to all of my classmate EXCEPT me?? The person next to me on both side kana bagi but i didn't get my paper *sigh* i try so hard not to take that personally but how cant i? Its obvious.. I wanted to confront her right there at that moment but hey is it wise to do so? Apa tah lagi during test? Naa..i think I'll just keep it to myself again..*sigh* all i know i did all my assignment and come on! I honestly don't know what to do..i cant study like this..we pay..i expect that it wont happen this way..never in my mind it doesn't even cross my head to be treated like this..I'm just *sigh* i deserved to be treated equally as the others.. Im totally hurt by what she did that's just it..i really cant do this..

Butterfly flay away

life...

2nd day of raya 2009

picture taken before jalans...

doing silly pictures in my dad's car while my dad di masjid sembahyang XD

me and the cousin and my bro's gf

me...didi and rahmah (my bro's gf)

reminds me of someone who told me i look like a vampire =/ lols it's from the flash ahahah yth jadi nya mcm ane but rugged ahaha LOLS p/s: other pictures di fb Xp

1day raya..

woke up awal today ceh semangat kali ah LOLS don't know why...heheh but but almost the last yang siap lah turun kebwah =P girls you know lah how much time they needed to get ready apa th lagi raya ane ceeh LOLS went to my grandma's house like always...lepaks there for the whole pagi til afternoon around 1 plus macam atu than when to my other nenek's house near by the grandma's...bump into my long lost crush sii ehem Madi *the charming guy that plays bass guitar rugged that makes me fall for him over and over again LOLS* anyway manage to say hai and salam2 like normal people and than balik i just wave at him and my uncle and cousins/ uncles then when to my ma long's house spent the whole day there catch up with the cousins aunties..story2 like always lah it was honestly fun and AWESOME! lols ahhahah tho its not that happening but yea i'm glad that i have the chance to celebrate hari raya this year again =) p/s: hm...i drank Nescafe so a little bit hyper LOLS layan saja tia ahahahah :P btw HAPPY HARI RAYA GUYS!!! ENJOY THE HOLIDAY! WOW!!! I'm GONNA USE GREEN SAL IT'S RAYA EVENTHOU I ERM KINDA ALARGEY NYA URG WHITE TO THIS COLOR AHHAH LOLS JUST FOR RAYA ORYT!

SHR 2009

to all my friends muslim or non-muslim i would like to say SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI MAAF ZAHIR BATIN p/s: i wanna say my apologies to that one particular person but i honestly don't know how...after years of not contacting with that person deep down i don't know..i think it's time to let go all the hateful feeling to each other i just wish i could somehow say my forgiveness to him...

saying

i got a lot on my mind but i just can't express it.. i like to keep it on my head but when things get worst than that's the time when all the thought are out =)

one picture cn say a thousand words

Leave out all the rest

I dreamt I was missing You were so scared But no one would listen 'Cause no one else cared After my dreaming I woke with this fear What am I leaving? When I'm done here? So if you're asking me I want you to know [Chorus] When my time comes Forget the wrong that I've done Help me leave behind some Reasons to be missed Don't resent me And when you're feeling empty Keep me in your memory Leave out all the rest Leave out all the rest Don't be afraid I've taken my beating I've shared what I've made I'm strong on the surface Not all the way through I've never been perfect But neither have you So if you're asking me I want you to know [Chorus] When my time comes Forget the wrong that I've done Help me leave behind some Reasons to be missed Don't resent me And when you're feeling empty Keep me in your memory Leave out all the rest Leave out all the rest Forgetting All the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well Pretending Someone else can come and save me from myself I can't be who you are [Chorus] When my time comes Forget the wrong that I've done Help me leave behind some Reasons to be missed Don't resent me And when you're feeling empty Keep me in your memory Leave out all the rest Leave out all the rest Forgetting All the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well Pretending Someone else can come and save me from myself I can't be who you are I can't be who you are

something from the heart..

hm...after months or let say almost a year kali...maybe i dont know i lost on counting :P anyway.. he's still cute..he's still caught my eyes...that cute lil guy...he always have that something...everytime he smiles...even serious LOLS good looking indeed he got his own charm...here i am saying.... i still have a crush on you Z tho you're way younger than me heheeh...btw i dont wanna buat his name eeh ahahh LOLS that particular friend will tau cia sapa LOLS anyway HAPPY HARI RAYA YOU GUYS!! XOXO maaf zahir dan batin =)

miss every bit of it..

miss my close friends at mtssr sii gmah rugged!Qidaaa...preety Mira..the kind one...Qida and gmah inda tau behapa durang ne

see how creazy she can bee...

Qida the pretty lady

gila rugged ahahah lols -.-" lame ko gmah ahahha

we started to get along...

aaah! nikah kamu kah?? nda lagau2 ahahah lols

our class signatures p/s: i really miss you guys...like the very2 ahahah LOLS

dream car

me and my dream car Volvo c30

Daily horoscope

fortune cookie for today

i'll empty my purse esok :P